yey for me!

Well today is my birthday and you know what that means! CAKE! Ha. Actually, not really. Since there is chocolate aplenty on the set of the new show I am doing, I have used all my activity points already this week. And so, while I am treating myself to Chinese food from my fav downtown Chinese restaurant for lunch, I am getting Chicken with broccoli & hot & sour soup, which is well within my points allowance and also some of my favorite food. I am going to try very hard to stay on program this week, birthday or no birthday. It is hard though. A gentleman in my show makes wine and brought me a bottle of it yesterday - I am going to try to save that for a week where I have some points to spare.

In other over-eating news, similarly to Joanne earlier this year, this is a very emotional time of year for me. My mother died November fourth eleven years ago, so there's that anniversary, and then there's the anniversary of my fiancé's death coming up in December. While these things do get easier with each passing year, the emotions never really go away. It doesn't help that those are intermingled with holidays that are really all about being with your family, and it's difficult to focus on the "family" part of those holidays rather than the "food" part. Both have depressing aspects. But I'm strong, and the thing about me is that through this entire journey, I am one of the rare people who have never given up. The idea of quitting, ever, has never even crossed my ming - it's simply not an option for me. That's pretty much how I am with everything in my life (everything big - I quit little things all the time, I can't tell you how many unfinished cross stitch and knitting projects I have floathing around...) and I don't see that changing any time soon.