Music mania

I am not someone who generally listens to the words when it comes to music - I just mostly sort of go with the tune or the beat or whatever on deciding whether or not I like a song (Robyn has ruined so many songs for me by telling me the meaning behind them - who knew that one song was about a woman wanting to shoot her boyfriend because he cheated on her? It had a good beat)
So this weeks meeting has me listening to the words to the songs on my ipod. After listening all day while I was in my car driving around, I finally found one I think is my theme song. It's a really obscure song by the supersuckers called "Here I am" and here are they lyrics:

here I am on my way
down another road I have paved
with every good intention I saved
and hearts that I broke

as for me I got scars
for evey mile I traveled so far
and some blood on my hand
here I am

with a song in my heart
and an attitude from the start
I took everybody apart
to see how they worked

I got friends that I owe
I aint naming names
cause they know
where they stand

here I am, here I am
here I am, here I am

If I went back where I've been
and I knew what I know now then
well I'd probably do it again
cause I'm just a man

at the end of the day
I got nothing to say
but here I am, here I am
here I am, here I am
here I am, here I am

I guess this song could be taken in a negative way, but that's not how I hear it. I am proud of how far I've come and I am proud of my scars. And those people I owe? Totally you guys and the rest of the saturday morning meeting peeps. So yeah, this song fits with my weight loss journey I think. Plus, it has a really good tune.

Quotes of the week!

This isn't something that happened to me, it's something I did - Jackie, upon recieving lifetime

It's called the present because it's a gift - Sherri

Looking on the bright side

WOW!!!

After this afternoons class I earned 32.5 activity points this week! Go me!

Weight Watchers Blessings

The positive things about this week on Weight Watchers for me:
-having a super cool super supportive leader
-getting activity in every single day
-going to 7 aerobics classes this week
-today's first one was at 6am this morning
-Tuesday's second one was an advanced class - it kicked my ass, and I don't think I'll be going again for a very long while, but I did it, I completed it, something I NEVER would have been able to do before
-my new awesomely awesome WW pedometer - I have been trying to get 8,000 steps a day, and I have been doing it and even more some days!
-early Saturday morning WW meetings
-getting all my water in

I am totally out of control his week

HELP!!!

I think I'm going back to points next week, I really need to write things down

Quote of the week

From last weeks meeting - on why he weighs things like fruit instead of putting them in measuring cups-

"I don't want to get screwed by the void"- Mohammed

This actually stopped our meeting cold for 30 seconds while the leader composed herself so she could go on.

A night out

Last night some friends took Robyn and I out to dinner as a thank you for taking care of their pets while they were out of town. We went to a really nice place called Willow. Now as many of you know, Robyn and I are currently flexing our Core muscles, which can making eating out challenging. Especially when you have reservations for 8pm and are starving when you get there and then they not only put warm bread in front of you, but a plate of oil+cheese as well. Off to a bad start. Then our friend gets a bottle of wine. DANGER! DANGER!

However, looking on the positive, we both ordered some kind of grilled chicken. Mine had a cream sauce, but it wasn't one of those places where they smother the food in the sauce, it was sort of lightly drizzled on. The sides we ended up ordering certainly weren't core, and we did end up getting 1 dessert and splitting it with one of our friends (and god it was good - some kind of lemon meringue truffle thingy - and there was chocolate involved) . Ok, so I pretty much used up ALL of the 25 points I had left for the week and I still have to face another restaurant with friends tomorrow, but it was totally worth it. I will even order a salad tomorrow if I have to in order to not use up any more points. Plus I still have 6 more aerobics classes between now and Saturday morning, so I will be getting some points every day that I will be able to use, so I'm not totally screwed.

?!?!?!?!?!

Ok, the scale at the gym officially su-ucks. Aparently I gained 6 pounds. In a day! How is that possible? Stupid scale.

Aerobics ramblings

I have actually reached the point at my gym where the receptionist not only knows me, but expects me. Yesterday I was EXHAUSTED. I hardly slept at all and I just wanted to go home and curl up in bed. But I sucked it up and went to my aerobics class anyway. I knew I'd have to pick up the veggies afterwards and I'm the only one in my household that really knows where they are and I had also told Fran (someone who I see at all my 4:30 classes) that I would be there. Plus, you know, after this past disasterous weekend I could use all the help I could get. I NEEDED those points! So I went and it was a good thing too because it turns out that Fran and I were the only ones there and Merideth said she wasn't going to do the class for only one person. As soon as I walked in, the receptionist said "there she is!" I guess they'd been waiting to see if I'd show so Meredith could see if she was going to do the class or not.

The gym scale was nice to me last night. If it was accurate, I have actually lost a couple pounds this week, bringing me back down to my lowest point again. I don't deserve to loose this week after the weekend I had, but I have been working my ass off at the gym, so maybe I do deserve it after all.

Robyn has actually found an aerobics class she likes. It's called Turbo Kick and this woman Pam teaches it. We went Wed night (which after tonight will make 5 classes I've taken this week - and I wonder why I'm so sore!). She was so not looking forward to it, but she agreed to give it a shot. As a general rule, she hates aerobics, but this class was happening at the right time and it was supposed to be a kick boxing one, so we went. It ended up being a sub (Pam) doing Turbo Kick and Robyn ended up liking it enough that she wanted to find out when the actual Turbo Kick classes were. There was one today at 6am (!) that she wanted to go to, and I said I wanted to go too, hoping it would energize me for the day. So we left the house at 5:45am (!!!) only to discover that the class was cancelled. ARG. Oh well, we will try again next week and also next tuesday I am going to try to talk Robyn into going back to the original kick boxing class to see what that's like. I'm trying to increase my activity since as my schedule stands I only do stuff Tues-Fri and I don't like leaving that 3 day chunk completely devoid of activity. There's a Turbo Kick class tomorrow at 1:30 I'm going to try to make. Robyn has a meeting so she can't go with me, but maybe she will next week.

It is just so insane to me how adicted I am to these classes. Even when I'm in them sometimes I'm like "god when is this going to be over" and constantly watching the clock, but still something compells me to go. Two years and 90 lbs ago, I never ever would have dreamed that this would be me. I am a friggin aerobics junkie. What happened to me? When did I transform? This truely isn't just about the weight, it's about being fit. Being able to climb a set of stairs without feeling like my lungs are going to explode. About being about to jog a block (esp after the bus!) without a second thought or wondering if I are ever going to be able to catch my breath.